I swear you were the guy of my dreams, but I had no idea what made me think that. I just knew. Everytime I'd see you, I get completely nervous. Then, when we finally started texting each other, it was amusing to discover that your friends were always on the lookout for me. It was a mutual understanding between us but I honestly have no idea what would happen to our relationship. It was next to impossible- you were six years my senior and you were someone people in my social circle would frown upon.
But for some reason I didn't care. Neither did you.
You completely understood why I couldn't date or why we couldn't be seen together. We shared a wide perspective in life which I couldn't see in other guys which made you completely unique. And it's why I admired you more.
When my mom found out about our little communication, she disapproved of it and demanded I shouldn't entertain "boys like him." Being an obedient daughter, I stopped.
You had no idea how excruciating it was to suddenly stop talking to you for 2 months. For the whole 2 months, you still kept texting and even calling (which I never answered).
Finally, i couldn't stand it any longer. I decided we just had to keep our communication to each other a secret.
And I promised to myself I wouldn't leave you hanging like that again.
And it was worth it.